So here i am and a mission has been shaken. the goals are blurred, the conquest and the motivation gone. almost. The truth is i fucked up. the truth is i never really had a plan to begin with. I know i want home. I know i want to be comfortable. I know that in the end i want to be happy. To be alone with a little slice of this world to call my own. a place to have to call my own and to help others to find their way too. A place to have to nurture. to tell someone i love them and to know they love me back. unrequited has gotten boring. its gotten to the point where im clawing at any semblance of hope just to get to the light on the other side of the glimmer. Where will all these days bring me? where will it all find a peaceful resolve. will it or it that simply to much to expect. Im going to write it out. im going to tell the story that should be told and find a place for it on the shelf of my life. im going to finish this through and im going to print it out and put it together with a bow. I'm going to tell the story of this epic battle because the ones inside deserve to be known. There personalities, these souls i have given life to should know the world i know. And the world should know them too, because they are known so well to me. I have other stories to tell. Other lives to paint out but for now. for this. im going to get this battle done and over with because its been 5 years now and there has been too many distractions; too many losses. I have come to a many a epiphany in my life. so many realizations about myself and who i am, I know who i am now. I know what im capable of. And its now time to let you see the dreams i have inside. A work in progress for now, But my own glimmer has begun to show....